shame

I was sort of thinking about shame. I remembered. I could connect that back to the Cowardice song, but I'll try to control myself.

I have these events. I made the wrong move, I took a poor step, I said something I shouldn't have. That sort of thing. In my head, these play events will play randomly. And all I ever wanted was to forget. But shame burned them into the part of my brain that doesn't forget even if it wants to. The embarrassment recedes, and all I'm left with is this semi-emotionless video, that plays without me wanting me it to, over and over, and I still wish I could forget.