Plan C

I think you're doing good in your personal ministry. And i also think you are helping greatly in your local church. but i think you are so concerned with figuring out what Plan A is, that you won't even do your Plan B (i think you have a Plan B in case Plan A doesn't work, when you figure that out) and have defaulted to sort of Plan C. i don't believe you'd recommend what you are doing right now to anyone.