This one's for my friends

I told a friend about how I wish I felt the way I used to. I wish I could be that positive, I wish I had that PMA. But if I was writing lyrics, it wouldn't be, "I've got your back and I know you've got mine," it would be, "I know things change, but I hoped this could stay the same."

"I don't believe in unity;

it's just one more abandoned dream."

Dear PDB

I ask these questions not so much because I'm searching for answers. I think I've found something that works for me. No, that isn't to say I know what I believe. Rather, I think I know what I don't believe.

I don't believe someone is in control. I don't believe things happen for a reason. I don't believe I have only one right choice. I don't believe that what happens after this is up to me.

On top of what I don't believe, I have doubts.

I doubt that there is anything after this. I doubt that someone is there. I doubt that these words are truly as powerful as you say they are.

But to what I was saying. I don't ask these questions because I want to know what I should be thinking about these problems that I have. I want to know that you think critically about these things, and if you don't, I want you to crumble

get up

"I am a patient boy
I wait, I wait, I wait, I wait
My time is water down a drain


Everybody's moving
Everybody's moving
Everything is moving,
Moving, moving, moving


Please don't leave me to remain
In the waiting room


I don't want the news
(I cannot use it)
I don't want the news
(I won't live by it)


Sitting outside of town
Everybody's always down
(Tell me why)


Because they can't get up
(Come on and get up)
(Come on and get up)


But I won't sit idly by
I'm planning a big surprise
I'm gonna fight
For what I want to be


And I won't make the same mistakes
Because I know how much time that wastes
Function is the key
Inside the waiting room


I don't want the news
(I cannot use it)
I don't want the news
(I won't live by it)


Sitting outside of town
Everybody's always down
(Tell me why)


Because they can't get up
(Come on and get up)
Up from the waiting room


Sitting in the waiting room
(Tell me why)
Because they can't get up"
-Fugazi Waiting Room

what day is it?

tell Jacob heavy stuff day? or something?

how much could i have it together?

Even if we started this out "right," life is difficult, I hear?

We could have it all worked out right when we start, and then everything could fall apart anyway.

Maybe for some, it doesn't matter if it starts out good or not. They are going to face tough times anyway.

bands

Today, in between bands playing at Rainfest, I went outside and noticed a lot of energy on the opposite corner, so I went to see what was going on. There was a band with an upright bass, a trombone, a guitar, a washboard and a dude tap dancing playing, along with an enthusiastic group of people dancing. It was pretty incredible. They were a pretty cool band, and I was really surprised by the dancers. 

I love seeing that kind of stuff. Thats something you have to go to the city for. 

"my friends look out for me like family. My mom's been struggling since I was three."