I'd rather be crazy

Don't ask me why.

This culture built on dismissing serious concerns, a language that inherently puts more than half of us down based on physical characteristics, then more on the way the the privileged half doesn't identify with what we are supposed to.

I'm being over sensitive. I'm over reacting. I'm the one who's crazy.

Do you think caring about these things is silly? Am I being crazy? Am I over doing it to care if this many of us realize we are hurt, and numerous others hate themselves and don't even realize it, or where it comes from? Is that an over reaction?

(I know I've hated myself for who I am. I'm just now starting to grasp that.)

I'd rather be crazy, if dismissing people's well being is what you call sane.

Tell them to shut up

"This song goes out to all you straight edge faggots. F*** YOU!"
"Did you say 'faggots'?"
"Yeah, I called you a faggot, you f***ing faggot..."
*people begin leaving the room*
"... If you get offended by someone calling people 'faggot' then you are a f***ing faggot! ..."

I love that we all walked away. There is no reason for this kinda of hateful language, and I'm glad we didn't tolerate it.
There is no reason for this to happen; there is no reason we should put up with it.

Party

You're at a party, and everyone is waiting for you to turn 18. At midnight, everyone starts singing happy birthday, then you run into the bathroom to vomit. There is a guy shouting in your ear, "you're a man now."

I'm afraid that tonight could drive a wedge in the middle of a stressed relationship. We have enough problems with disunity anyway.

Also, some things that are being said make me wonder if you'll leave, or if we'll drive you away.

Time makes a bit of difference, but I think it's weird that you can have this commitment and give it up. A month, thats dumb, but I guess you never really had that passion? Maybe you were talked into and out of it. That short time is silly, but I guess I understand why.

A year confuses me more. You are in this deep, and it seems like its a pretty big focus of your life. How much you're doing can't be ignored. You get stoked at the mention of Floor Punch, but where will you be when your 18?

You're one old dude. Your example has literally changed lives. It changed mine. You were the reason I believed. What could motivate you to give this up now? I'll keep your words alive; everything that you no longer hold on to will be carried by those you influenced. The legacy you chose to let die can't, not as long as I'm still here. I just don't understand you at all.

I just think it seems a little dishonest.

"...submitting to one another out of reverence for Christ. Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior." -Ephesians 5:21-23

the interpretation we had going, it sounds pretty good. I'm all about equality, and that is what you are reading into it. Sometimes, I agree, you should submit to your wife. I'm all about that. But I think it seems dishonest to call it biblical.
I notice, now, looking at the verse, that the verse after 22 seems to really drive home the sexism we are trying to distance ourselves from. 21 was the right choice to misdirect us on, to pull the sleight (submitting to one another). That one seems more equal, but not in the context.
I'm thinking I want to argue here, that by this chapter, equality doesn't seem biblical.


I feel weird saying that I think something is good, but not biblical. I feel like I've said something wicked, or that it's a paradox.

"why do you suppose that belief persists?"
"It's troubling. I guess because guys, people like me, haven't done our job."