Dear PDB

I ask these questions not so much because I'm searching for answers. I think I've found something that works for me. No, that isn't to say I know what I believe. Rather, I think I know what I don't believe.

I don't believe someone is in control. I don't believe things happen for a reason. I don't believe I have only one right choice. I don't believe that what happens after this is up to me.

On top of what I don't believe, I have doubts.

I doubt that there is anything after this. I doubt that someone is there. I doubt that these words are truly as powerful as you say they are.

But to what I was saying. I don't ask these questions because I want to know what I should be thinking about these problems that I have. I want to know that you think critically about these things, and if you don't, I want you to crumble