depravity

Oh God, what have we done?
-A Plea for Purging, Malevolence

Is man evil?

"If God, right now, were to throw open the gate of Hell and say, 'Everyone who wants out of hell, the only thing you have to do is bow your knee to me and recognize my Lordship' they'll slam the door and stay in Hell... You don't realize that men are really evil. They really are evil." -Paul Washer, famous theologian.

i find it hard to believe that many people have directly rejected God. it just doesn't make sense to me.

i was recently in someone's house, and there was on the walls what a lot of people i know would find to be offensive. a portrait of Jesus, defaced, made to resemble a zombie. an inverted cross, with Jesus hanging upside down. someone else might see these things and think that this is an example of how evil people are, but i didn't feel that way. at all. (although, i was a little uncomfortable at first).

but were the people living in that home rejecting God?

Who hasn't been hurt by a Christian?

Rejected someone who claims to be of God makes perfect sense.
"He says he's a man of God; actions speak louder than words." -Cal Rebels.

I was talking to someone who frequents that place, and i told him about how my friend is severely sick. he looked at me, and with all sincerity said, "Holy sh*t." he cared about a person's suffering, even if he didn't bat an eye at the sacrilegious symbols on the wall.

what does it mean to say that man is evil?

photography projects

i had an assignment when i was in my photography class to take photos related to a theme of my choice; i believe i chose to do it on rubik's cubes. I took pictures involving my rubik's cube, and my teacher thought it was genius.

one of the ideas i thought about doing was to chronicle how someone had let me down. i thought of plenty of things i could capture. sometimes, people fail. sometimes, they come through. and sometimes, it's too late. and somehow, that seems nice.

malice

I can't sleep

and i'm hungry.

this is something i don't want to have to do. i think it's the best decision that we can make. i even think it is the best that i do it, instead of one of you guys, but come on. it's going to suck. and my solution (if you could call it that) would have been to passively wait until what we all expect to happen to just happen.


what should i tell him. i'm thinking that i might make it about how we want the best for him, but i'll admit now that was not the main focus of the conversation. i could tell him how we need what we do. i don't want anyone to be upset, especially considering how we want this to peter out. we'll just see, what we see.

Who Am I

It'a nightmare, but it's paradise
it's a terror, but it will entice
it's a treacherous sea
it's an ocean breeze
and i hate what it has made me

Who AM I?

This nightmare, you drug me into
but i came running without a moment to lose
it's a treacherous sea
it's an ocean breeze
and i hate what it has made me

Who AM I?

The Secret

Where are you; where did you go?

i know that things change/ but i hoped that this could be the same/ were you ever who i knew for so long?/ how can that be, now that you're gone?

Where are you? Where did you go?

dude 1: hey, bro.
dude 2: hey.
dude 1: i had a dream about you last night.
dude 2: yeah?
dude 1: yeah, man it...
dude 2 (interrupting): hold on man, just a minute
(the two drink, then trade drinks, then lock arms and drink. the maneuver is clumsy).
dude 1: yeah, i had a dream last night.
dude 2: yeah?
dude 1: yeah bro; you were in it.
dude 2: really?
dude 1: yeah, it wasn't weird though.
dude 2: no, not weird at all.
dude 1: totally.

lyrics

i've been thinking about sharing lyrics that i wrote for a project that i'm working on with Zach and Tony. part of me doesn't want to, but i like these ones.

Have We Met

I thought I remembered you, but we’ve never met before. My ideas of you must have been dreams.
Have we met?
They thought you stood firm, but refused to stand back.
They move you!
I thought that you stood strong.
I was wrong.


(i had to edit it down a little bit to make it fit with the song, but these are what i wrote originally).